Only One of Me

There’s only one of me.I need more hands. I need quicker reflexes for catching you when you climb, and spin, and jump. I need to be a faster runner, to stop you when your interests land somewhere in busy streets, or crowded places. I need life’s answers to anxiety when I take you into doctor’s […]

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5 More Minutes

Last night I had a dream. A dream that I have fairly often.It always begins the same, with my boy and I dancing around our kitchen. Hand in hand, giggling and shouting, skipping, happiness filling the room. Very commonly our reality. It moves to Beckett handing me his tablet and silently asking to watch “The […]

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It’s Tough, But You’re Tougher.

-It’s Tough, But You’re Tougher- One of the things that will forever amaze me about this kid is his resilience. His ability to push through.To bounce back. Earlier in the week, Beckett and I went into an appointment at a new (to us) location, to discuss next steps in aiding him in coping with overstimulation […]

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Differences in Communication

We’re like snowflakes, you and me. There are billions of us. And yet, none of us are exactly the same. This rings true right through the paths taken, when your loved one is diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. No 2 Autistic individuals are 100% identical in their characteristics, their challenges, or their strengths. And the […]

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A Letter To My Boy

I hope you know that Mama is trying.I hope you know that there is nothing I wouldn’t do for you. Mommy is learning right along with you, each and everyday. I’m still learning the signs.I’m still learning what pushes your tiniest buttons.I’m still learning what you love the most, as it is ever-changing.And I’m still […]

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His Happy

What does happiness look like? Though we all often think of a simple smile gracing someone’s face, everyone’s happiness is molded of intricate, unique parts stemming from who they are. And in our boy, happiness boasts many forms.It comes in all shapes and sizes. His happiness is piggy-back rides through the rooms of our home. […]

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The Angels of Our World

If someone approached me one day and asked me what emotion I have swirling inside, on a continuous reel, among the many, I’d name “guilt”. Guilt that my sons were born so early.Guilt that we lost our first child.Guilt that our household runs on just one income.Guilt that I don’t keep a tidier home.Guilt that […]

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To Ever Have A Chance.

Innocence. It is something that you have, until it is taken from you.We are born with pure hearts.Hearts that love all.Care for all equally.That see the bigger picture.And pass no judgements. Harsh words, discrimination, humiliation, ridicule, hate…Those things are all TAUGHT.Those things are all a learned behavior. My child is on the Autism Spectrum. He […]

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Morning Prayers

I pray that my alarm is kind and somehow stops the world from spinning for 5 extra minutes of rest. I pray that the coffee is strong and resilient. I pray that this little boy has this much energy through his day of learning, as he did through half the night. That he’s open-minded today. […]

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What He Would Say

I don’t often presume to know exactly what my littlest love is thinking. His mind is too beautiful for that. But if I had to guess what he’s feeling when he is with his Daddy… one of the easiest things I’d ever have to do, by far. In your presence, dear Husband, our son exudes […]

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